How I feel!

Hi everyone,

It has been long since I share something with you all. However, despite my blogs going silent, my life went through a lot.

From gaining professional growth to losing my mother to cancer, I bet! that life can never be the same. It has been almost 2 months since my mother left for her final abode. It might seem like enough time to cope with the loss but I feel, the lifetime is not enough. 

Mummy & Me

I want to drown in loss and go silent but, in the real world, it's impossible unless we go mad! I want to keep talking about my mother, her life our loss and how I feel all the time. God has been kind to me for giving me a bunch of people who can bear my catharsis over and over. But, I would not like them to go through this all the time. So, I came here just to pen down my feelings because I know this is my space. I know, here I can talk about "How I feel" without getting others bored. 

She was always important to me but the way she has made a permanent space in the back of my head and the depths of my heart, it's nothing like before. When I eat something that she too likes, I miss her. When I watch a good movie I miss her. When I go somewhere I miss her and I feel like why did I even come? Laughing, talking, and planning something, during my evening walks or before I sleep; I just miss her. You name it and my mother's absence has become permanent for me.

In normal days I would have asked you all to stay here to read, review and reply on what I write. Albeit, today I would just say- Stay If you Feel like it! No hard feelings.

For now, I am signing off 

Until next time